“I caught myself eating today”

I was surprised, but it was a feeling I had come to recognize.
I knew it meant something was being suppressed.
Old rusty reflex, what ever it is, I would eat to minimize it.
Those days are long gone.
Still, I was unconsciously feeling something didn’t belong.
A little anxiety maybe? All I knew is it didn’t feel good.
I recognized the danger. I was thankful I understood.

The past 24 hours, I had gone way back, revisited a time when my emotional eating was automatic.
I’ve long sense stop that destructive habit. Until today, the feeling had become greatly unfamiliar.
All my good works were about turn me into a liars.
I didn’t panic, it wasn’t too late to turn back.
I took a deep breath and put the bread back.
A quiet moment with myself to feel the hunger and see what it asking was for.
My stomach was satisfied, I knew I really didn’t need to eat anymore,

Quietly listening, I heard…

I was feeling exposed for sharing my soul. I asked that you cover me Lovely with your acknowledgements. Reciprocity, since I had been so bold.
Instead, there were 67 of you who viewed the content, but only 1 of you left a comment.

It’s important that we establish a sense of trust when working out the matters of the heart.
We can be surface, but that takes no art.
I’m interested in really reaching you.
But I need you to play a part.
So I’m going to start again.
If you want to do the work, I’m here for you until they end.

Love to those that signed in “To keep in touch with Stone” thank you for viewing the content. I will take that as your consent.
I know its difficult to speak up and participate at first, but we know silence and stuffing is far worst.

Yes, I caught myself eating.
Never again will I be controlled by something festering and seething.
I will be honest and honor myself enough to find out what it is I’m really needing.

I caught myself eating, when I really needed to be communicating.

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  1. “Yes, I caught myself eating.
    Never again will I be controlled by something festering and seething.
    I will be honest and honor myself enough to find out what it is I’m really needing.

    I caught myself eating, when I really needed to be communicating.”

    Stone, these are words for my soul today. Bless you, and thank you for voicing what so many of us feel and struggle with. I love you!

  2. I just viewed your blog for thge first time. I LOVE it. I am on my blackberry right now, so I can’t view it as I would like. You are such an inspiration.

  3. Stone- this needs to be written on a t-shirt! It touches the soul. I am survivor of child and teen sexual abuse as well as parental physical abuse and continue to struggle with the tendency to “stuff” feelings. What a wonderful reminder to all of us on the healing path.

  4. Angela Riley says:

    Really? Stuffing my face when I should be communicating!! That’s it, that’s it, that’s it!!! Did you really just COMPLETELY slap me in the face with absolute understanding of my fluctuating food issue!! Oh my oh my….I am stunned. I never even looked at it like that, but it is so clear now that I’ve read your words.
    That is EXACTLY the reason for my “chunky this year, small that year and medium next year” life! Wow….need to communicate. Yes. And I’m the queen of holding stuff in. Thank you so much, Stone!!! I see it. And I’m taking note.

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